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Saturday, March 20, 2010

Ever changing moment

Time is changing and as well as us. People are changing almost every minute. Some can be recognize easily while some will have to take a period of time to observe the changes in him/her. The most easily trait to be observed is one temperate. As temperate is a trait that will shown almost instantly upon changing, we can track and change the ways or methods for approaching. 
The same goes with me. Recently, I started to have a major mood swing. I can be in my ecstasy for a moment and the next minute, my mood changed entirely. What scared most is I started to show my bad mood with peoples around me and I know this is really bad. I always wanted to improve my desire of being angry and commence in scolding or ranting around but seem like this is all getting more and more worst. The cool me who will not get angry easily might have been dead and I was reborn to a new characteristic. The new me seem to be overdoing as I started to have no patient at all. Sensitivity surrounding me and skepticism is what holding me on. The old and secret bottle is no longer around while the autism characteristics is emerging again once more. I was once anti-society or non-public relation dude but as I grown, this is changing and I become the opposite. Now, maybe all will be the same again as the old times. As leopard will never changed its spot. The same goes with me. I believe that is my nature and I am just back to my own self but indeed this will bring harm to myself. I will soon lost my skills in communicating well with others and keep away from peoples. Will this happens? Hope not... 

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

hmmm...i think u wont lost the communication wif ppl la...at least u will share your inner feeling here...
haha...we r almost the same...scolding ppl part?haha

Benjamin said...

lol... depending on the way I deal with myself. Maybe soon I will not share my inner feeling but jz some experience here...
yup~not until scolding actually. just angry tone and aggressive ways in express something to others...

Anonymous said...

well sometimes the way i talk to my fren also will scare them...they thought im angry but im not...juz manybe a bit aggressive..haha

Benjamin said...

me usually dont do so... but dat day jz did... lol... maybe too stress up... gt too many thing to be done one shot

Anonymous said...

then try to control abit lo...im learning that now...haha....but then seldom talk to fren ald so no arguement...=)

Benjamin said...

me ady mild case. cz I always keep the anger to myself and post everything out in my facebook or else do something else to forget about that... Just recently I started to be more aggressive... hehhe
Rmbering last time I even scold people that care about me as I was more sensitive by then... once get some set back and got people care for me a lot, I would just burst to tears... ( quite shameful)...;P

Anonymous said...

is normal la...you are human wat...exam is coming soon don make yourself so emo..it will influence alot...try to be open-minded...don think too much...enjoy the life

Benjamin said...

lol... is ok for me... the more emo m i, the more i can concentrate in study...

Anonymous said...

wah such a weird person you are...haha....then continue emo la....XD
but seriously not good for health

Benjamin said...

hmm... can u please tell me who u r? I know I know u d... pls? hehe

Anonymous said...

of coz you know i know you la....XD
juz let it be a secret cant?

Benjamin said...

i really want to know who is the anonymous who chat with me here ma... haha
jz tell la... I "will" keep it a secret d... XD

Anonymous said...

lol....then i disappear from here...then u no need to know ald lo...ok?

Benjamin said...

not fair!!! u know me only... lol
u take Penjagaan kesihatan diri huh? hmm...

Anonymous said...

ya im taking it...then u slowly guess la...but for me i prefer sceret la...then don have to worry so much...sometimes i tend to talk more to ppl tat i dono or cant meet rather than ppl tat i alw meet

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