Something silly

Obsession is a very dangerous word in the living world! Out of blues, I seem to obsess with something that wasn't even dreamed of. Being a little lofty boy with more silly thoughts that able to come true with a little tricks. Holly day and I am off... Ciao :)

Busy October

What is October meant to you?

For me, its an extreme month! Timetable is a mess and biological clock messed up. Hardly believe that I lived to suffer October blues. October is a month of hardwork as I got limited budget to spend with in first place. Compensating the time spend for leisure, I filled it with more workloads. You may say I am crazy to stay overnight for most of the night in this month but whose not crazy when something is need to be done in short notice? Believing that suffer now and enjoy in the future, what sow now is what harvested later. I am building my own bridge to the future where in between, hurdles need to be passed and rerouting have to be done. I am lucky on this path of life as I was bestowed with a lots of passionate and helpful peoples. Some even helps me in making great leap of life.

The tired body of mine soon need to have a good rest. Been noticing abnormality in my body due to disturbance of biological clock. Migraine and gastritis seems to be frequent visitors nowadays. This must be a sign of distress from body seeking for help but was ignored ever since by indulging into heavy workloads. Maybe its time to have a companion to lookout for me on this minute matter. Empty thought seeping off. Au revoir tout le monde!

Cousin getting married!!!!! :)

Its red happening at hometown by the end of the month! Hurray!!!

Solemness

Been a long time since I last visit. Sorry for abandoning my blog for such a long time.

I was toooooooo lazy when comes to blogging nowadays but this is just a lame excuses to start with. Never say never!

Is it good to not leave another opportunity open while seeking for another? Shutting down one's path seems to be the common habits of teens nowadays. This ain't just applied to opportunity but also daily choices. For me, I just simply shut everything off and this is very dangerous. Though I do not wish to have another opportunity flying pass me, I am aiming for higher resolution. The meaning of path is too deep to be understand whilst to be explained its another hefty work. Seeking for easy way out might be fast for most but the progress of learning never stop just here. The hard way teaches us how to live life to the fullest. However the flicker minded me choose to switch between both road from time to time making life so miserable. Well, human won't be happy with what they had now. That's the desire that drives us further but for me its another story. I seem to neglect more people's feeling than before and this might be the cruelest part in my life. As a Capri born, I am covered with solemness but desired for more close friends. However, as time passed, my friend circle does not expand but shrinking instead. The attitude of shut oneself off seems to have its side effect. My social network was small and in the nearby zone. Friends who lost contact were once best with and that the bitterness experienced till now. What should I do to remake the scenario where I do have more friends nearby?

Those who seek for truth will eventually found an answer for what they sought for. That should be what I hold on to for now. Buck up Ben!!!!

M.A.L.E

Recently I heard of a common thought of most of the parents in the world. I suppose every parents would like your child to be success in the future and thus imply them with your path. Yes, most of the parents in this world do only hope their child venture into certain field of profession. 

Have you heard of M.A.L.E. pathway of career? You didn't heard wrongly. It is MALE!!! 

This has really made my day.

Ok, let me decipher what it meant by that.

M- Medicine

A- Architectural;

A- Auditor

L- Lawyer

E- Engineer

What is the similarity of all the profession stated above? Well, if you notice, all these are high income career which would need you to have certain knowledge or professional skills. 

Correct me if I'm wrong :)

Colleague's theory~ OMG!!!!! @@

Finally I'm now in my second week of my interns. Well, my colleagues are very kind and helpful. As usual, I am able to blend in to their world through different topics. Over there, I am officially classified as Question boy. Why? I have no idea why also. Maybe is due to my curiosity to know more on the topic I keen to. Some times, I never realize that I asked people questions which were so short but often left unexplained. Some were too technical to answer while some quite direct but there just no answers to the questions asked. I normally just ask "WHY?", "THEN?",  "WHAT?", "HOW?" and "WHICH?". Anyway, sometimes they even just ask me to stop asking them questions whenever I walk by. Haha~

And now here are some of the theories my colleagues said while referring to me:
~ With face that look like Korean, you should have lots of girls...
~ I don't believe your still single. Don't lie to me. With your look, u should be having few gf at a time!
~ Clever aka talkative guys have a lot of girlfriends
~ Curious people cares on girls a lot. So you should have at least 1 gf to care about!

Anyway, whatchya think? Suddenly I became a weird and love freak ady~ LOLZ

The journey

Very soon and I will be leaving UKM for internship and after, graduation. All these passes with blinking speed and somehow, I do have some feeling attached to it. I will surely miss all my 'circles' here. My Viva will be on 21st April (Thursday) and will be in evening. Hope I doesn't crash my presentation. 

Last week, I done my first paper and it was like, Gosh! I neglect that part and its out as a full questions. After the exam, we went for a simple meal for celebration. Initially we thought of going to Alamanda but the road towards there was flooded. Then we thought of going to Domino's Pizza as we got a discount coupon. However, we ended up at a restaurant in Kajang. Had Portuguese Chicken Chop set at around 3.30pm and was dated for another meal at 7pm. 

Thursday has become a fast food day for me. In the morning, my friends and I went for McDonald for breakfast and later we went for Popeyes at Mid Valley. I ordered a set of 3 chickens and due to promotion, I got extra chicken wings. Its the most heavy meal I ever had in my life! Together with coleslaw and mashed potatoes which were way better than in KFC, both Jacky and me had finished the meal like we're too hungry.  We then had Rio for movie. I like the movie though as it touched a lot on kinship, love, dream, tolerance and more. After the movie, Jacky went to McD to buy himself  merchandises of Rio.  The night is still young. We went for Manhattan Fish Market for dinner instead. I didn't order as I was too bloat then.

On Friday, I went to the Career fair at Mid Valley. Yes, Mid Valley for the second consecutive day. I realize I got very limited job choices for my majors. Mostly, I applied for QA/QC and even as management trainee. Luckily I still found a company that accept molecular biologist for degree level. Leave the bad news and I finally met Nadia again after the last encounter during Yoke's wedding! We crap too much duh! 

So lets move on to the next day. I went to KLCC for Pikom PC fair and the to Mid Valley again for the third consecutive days. I seem to have strings attached to Mid Valley. Just went there for simple meal and set back to campus. It was a tiring journey for me as I never got enough sleeps these few days for outing. Hopefully, I can have enough strength to subdue the quest of my life =)

KARMA

Today I will talk about Karma.

What do you understand about the word Karma? Karma is all about the entire cycle of"Cause and Effect".
There are peoples who were born imperfect or with disabilities. It is believe this is due to the entire cycle of Cause and effect. Our life is very interesting as we sow something that can only be harvested in our next life.

Today, appears that animal abusers was being posted and discuss or rather more specifically cursed in social network. What the abuser did was just accumulating his fertilizer for his "Cause". When time is up, the flower of sins will bloom beautifully and this will triggered bad "Effect" in his next life.

As per according to a story I heard, there was once an airplane tragedies years ago and somebody actually saw the dark flower blooming as aura from the head of all passengers and air attendances in the plane. Then after, he/she went down the plane before it departs. A moment later, the tragedies occur and it happens right before his/her eyes. This indicated the blooming of sins flower and was also indicated the end of one lifespan. Nobody knows how this happens and miraculously the man/woman was able to sense the differences and saved.

Sometimes, tragedies involving mast numbers of peoples happens every now and then. According to Buddhism, their they share the same time. They might be young, adults, elderly or even handicap but when your time is up, there's ain't anything that differentiate yourself from other. People share the same fate of cycle: Birth, Aged, Sick, Dying.

P/s: This is just based from collective memories of mine. Sorry if this offences or insult you. And I apologize for any error here.

Finally of PT 30

Pesta Tanglung UKM aka National University of Malaysia's Lantern Festival has finally come to finally. After few month of preparation and launching, all the hard works is worthwhile. Seeing all my friends who joined whether as a committee members or as the stage performers fight so hard for the best performances last night as a winding story, for me is enough. Although I didn't join PT this year as an exco (my ex daddy wanted me to go for the interviews for exco), the feeling of Lantern festival is still the same but the situation is different. I am able to get a full view on another perspective and once again get to feel the sensation of being a free man.

The major events end by the stage performances and this year is on musical. Unlike the pass which performed on a story with sad and touching story lines this years the performers are performing in a musical seemable story. Although is a musicals, but only a few songs were sung by the actors. From the songs they sung, the feeling of the scripts seem to be alive and reachable. There is a part where "Ray" who was a doctors and son to a very successful man dies, most of my friends say that they did cried but this is a different story for me. Went to toilet for so many times that I does not have the mood to fully enjoy the show anymore as some parts of the story were not seen by me.

Lastly, this is a great show and Yi Shiun just performed all his skill. He acts, sungs, dances, and even play his harmonica once again on a big stage. To all my friends who acts and dances in the show~ Jin Yang aka Uncle Ben, Joanne~ dancers, Eng Ghee~dancers, Jayce~dancers, and more... thanks for your participation in the show... This make the show so interesting just trying to spot and awaiting for your turn to performs...

To all Excos ( Yuan Han, Jin Ni, Yet Loon, Cai Ni, Edison, Hui Nian, Seow Voon, Kar Yee~ more familiar with) and ex-Excos (all my daddy, mummy, ah gong, ah ma, great gramps) good job and thanks for your hardwork for this splendid events.

A post not posted here

Recently, I've just publish a post on a website. The idea of the webpage are really good. The creator of the page will invite all those who are willing to share their thought to publish their post on that page. It was interesting. 

If you like here is the adds

http://darkness-mind.blogspot.com/

Hope you can find relieve there.

To view what I have published there click here

Voting time

New year is coming and what will you wish for? A wish for everyone or a private wish for self? A simple wish can make smiles. SO, I'm going to make a survey on the New Year wishing. 

Please feel free to vote for what u want.

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Vote in need really

thanks in advance for your votes.

World AIDS Day

1st December is World AIDS Day.
It's for us to remember that we should spread the love and care to the HIV patients but not the virus...
LETS contemplate on what we should do...

Sci.Thinking

Scientific thinking exam will be on a few hours later... 

But I still haven't finish reading it... 

Got to seek for extra help now...

Help...

Help...

Help...

Hope nothing goes wrong later...

God bless...

finger cross...

Living for a reason

As animal do, human also struggle to live a better life. Live with a true 'hope' everyday and sincerely pray for be able to live for another day. The censure of responsibilities is what people tends to avoid but there are also some who will bear the responsibilities alone to ensure the best of life. Remembering the very best moment in life? Most often the sweet moment is unforgettable but the bitter moment is what people will not forget.  The agony, the sorrow, the pain, the suffering... Does anybody really cares? The answer is no as everyone are suffering from this. It just depend on how they cope with the matter and how effective with their coping. A talented human will be able to supress with the agony in a short and effective ways. While another group will be having trouble doing so as they are losing their ways or path on the journey to succumb the pain. They are always the one who does extremely react to a small matter in life even though with guidance from friends and families. Ending their life suppose should be their last resort in surviving.

 

There should be a reason for everyone to stay alive as long as possible. From the moment we breath without using placenta, we are all bearing a reason to begin our journey. There is one and only reason which are very specific and are common in about every few percentiles. If there is no reason to stay alive, then why is there a reason for being born? High demand on useless stuff will only bring to harm not glory or luxurious. 

That is why we all are living with a reason. A reason that we are searching for and the answer awaiting in front. However, the route towards the ultimate reason is tough and might easily lost. Not everyone can be able to found their true path...

Water crisis

Water water everywhere but there is not a single drops to be consume. 

無題

痛

無言

今天考了 RC 的考試。。。

說真的，不難。。。

可是，無言阿。。。

一個小時實在太短了。。。

要做30題 OBJECTIVE，10題 SUBJECTIVE 和 4 題 ESSAY。。。

時間真的很不夠用。。。

可是，嘻嘻。。。

我做完了。。。哈哈。。。

以每分鐘60字的速度在寫這。。。

《緊急》！！！

最近，馬來西亞又再次吹起了一陣強風。這暴風料將到十二月中才結束，我囯已將這風暴提升至13號風球~緊急紅色警報。預料全國所有正在求學的學生們將成爲這強風的受害者。陣風附帶來了‘壓力’而且很有可能會老化人民。可是，同樣的風也相近的全球各地刮起來了。可説是全球風啊。。。

如發現您的孩子有以下的症狀，請採取行動；

• 每天抱著書
  

• 掉髮（嚴重性）

• 食量劇增/沒食慾

• 老嘆氣

• 很煩躁

• 不作平時愛做的事（如看戯，走街等）

• 老関在房

• 等等。。。

爲了您和孩子的健康，最好立刻行動。。。

這暴風每年都會吹起。。。

全球一致認爲把這風名為~考試風。。。

無聊。。。沒事

考試要到了。。。

我真的很壓力阿。。。

就昨天而已我就讀到清晨五點多才回房睡。。。

看到了朋友一個接一個的倒下我好害怕哦。。。

好怕我也會跟著一起到下。。。

恐怕這事就快發生在我身上了。。。

連日的壓力壓在了我的身上也讓我了解到我那懶散個性的代價。。。

真的很怕阿。。。

誰可以救我？

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現在的我，好需要依靠哦。。。

幸好有人給我依靠了。。。哈哈。。。

可是，就很奇怪咯。。。

啥奇怪呢？

不懂啊。。。

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謝謝你

Cobo moro soro

This is the most crucial moment in this year for me ~~~> I'm going to sit for my semester final exam . Hard though but this make my day. I was force to study extremely hard. Actually should be study crazily. For me, this was like a dream and I will try my best in this dream so later might be able to reach another mind state in another way -> a better way. Study was the only path to keep me going and stop me from thinking negatively. Also, I was able to strengthen my social skill as my socializing really SUCKS.

Now what I have to care most is my body. My body condition can be said to be deteriorate during this whole week as I was eating more JUNK food with bad living habit as in take more meals than usual, sleep later than usual (once till 5.30a.m.), skip meals, less plain water intake, more carbonated drinks and so on. This is all the bad bad habit which make my conditions worse. I hate it but DO I HAVE A CHOICE? All I can do is try to minimize the impact of these health hazard on my body. Really scare if one day I fell ill severely and pass away due to this but right now, I think that this might just as well be true as I am already SICK. Should I tell HER? Maybe no... I preserve the RIGHT to let her know the truth of my weak and sick body.

If I let her know now, then sure will be much worried on me and can't concentrate on her study. I do not wish to make her suffer in the dilemma of worries and missing. I think this is the best that I can do now.

So, thinking too much make suffers too. No wonder my junior said I need a psychology to amend my habits. Is that WHAT I want? Maybe but this is not true. I DO NOT NEED one...Haha... My psychology state is quite stable and what I need is just guidance and care from friends and other individuals. I need to release my stress out by MAYBE crying out loud? Walking excessively? Study fanatically? Eating excessively? etc.